I am a bad man

Perhaps one of the baddest around.

A few days ago, I wrote a 'nasty' mail to a leader in the church, questioning his motive in 'taking over my turf.' He requested to meet me to talk about it. I have yet to agree to his time and place. I have not been seeing my parents for a few days. This is abnormal.

In another unrelated incident, I proved myself to be a mean person.

A colleague made a mistake with an installation. We tried to solve the problem to no avail so we contacted our principal. We followed the suggestions given and the problem was not solved. I reported tihs. The support team repeated what was suggested and wanted to know if we really did what was told. I got a bit hot and started to respond 'professionally' (meaning, no mercy.) I changed my mind at the last minute and said something simple instead. I told the support team that we have tried all the suggestions and they didn't work. We would consider the case close even when the problem is not solved since there seemed to be no solution.

The support person (a young lady) called me from Shanghai and told me she felt bad for not being able to solve the problem. She offered to help us investigate the matter online. I have already asked my team to reinstall the product, so there was nothing to see. I feel bad that she felt bad.

Now that we have re-installed it, we got back the same problem!

I have reported this and hopefully we can find a solution.

I am so short tempered lately. My colleague said yesterday was hot. But they don't feel the heat in me. This is not holy fire burning with passion for God and for souls, this is unnecessary fury and anger.

I hope this will past real soon. I may explode on someone I love.